Brave Steps for the Quiet Heart

Social media is a two-edged sword.  It can pierce the veil of darkness with the Light we share in our words or it can bring the voice of the world into your life without an invitation.

Social media has changed how people see us and how we share our thoughts.

I now have more ‘friends,’ than I do not even know by name and every single one of you has a peek into my world.

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And the one thing I have never told the world, is that I am introvert.  Honestly, who really cares and needs to know this. Seems trivial to social media and your opinions and to so many other important things in this world today.  But, it is time the picture perfect life, some think is portrayed on our Facebook, Instagram or in person is really, really talked about.  This is what I am hearing all of the time.  That lives are falsely represented on social media and that no one ever really shows the tough stuff.

I’m going to break open a brave heart and tell you something so real and so hard to even type, that fear might grip me for a moment, but the truth…The Truth… will always set you free.

My life is far from perfect, but every single post and picture of our family is the real deal.  I don’t choose the pretty moments to share with you.  I cannot make up our joy and our love for one another.  And the large-ness of our lives that may seem like a show to some… that large-ness is the life I live fully every day.  And it exhausts me.

Pictures are worth a thousand words, and my life is a thousand minutes long every day.  Every day of homeschooling, parenting, working, running a non-profit, speaking, writing, directing a homeschool group of 130 people, traveling, mentoring and the list goes on.

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An introvert does not do those things without much prayer and big, bold, brave steps of faith.

Every time I share a picture with you, I am opening another space for judgement and speculation.

Every time you see me speak, it is not because I crave the travel, the time away or the hobby of something other than my family.

My home, my family and my life are my sweet spot. And there is no place I would rather be, than with my child on my lap and our words and our song singing the melody of our life together.

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The difference? The Why of sharing?  God calls us to be the Salt and the Light.  No matter what.  Even when it is hard, or stretching or others consider you to have it all together, and you’re floundering at the floor of mercy.

I do ALL things through Christ, Who strengthens me.

Have you ever thought or spoken those words,” She has it all together? or “I don’t know how she does it all?”  Throw those words into your spam folder and delete forever.

Because if you are intimidated or insulted by another woman’s very full life….

Imagine how intimidating and full it feels to her?  A full and large to love life is repetitive, long, hard brave steps to doing the next thing.. With only Christ as the truest Rock and Identity.

When my heart is the quietest, I find more brave. In Christ alone.

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Because:

“Wherever our roads cross with others’ roads, we can experience the power of the Cross.

Wherever our roads cross with others, the Cross can be lifted high and lift us both up and into Him.

Wherever our roads cross, the Cross can make even us friends.”

  ~Ann Voskamp, Scott Sauls

I am a floundering, tired mass of emotion. Just like you.

I sweep spilled Cheerios off my floor, wipe runny noses, teach my children World geography, scrub toilets, change sheets, talk to my teens until wee hours of the night, manage sports, academia and mentoring to my family every day, all day. A thousand glorious mistakes that I let you see and a thousand hallelujahs on my knees to thank the Lord that His mercies are new every morning.

You see my brokenness.  I don’t hide the daily cracks and cries.  We all are in this together.

My family is the first reach in my sphere of influence.  They are my world. But, here, right here? This.

YOU.  You are ALSO my sphere of influence.  And I take that just as seriously.  Because God has called me to it.  I could walk away, turn you off or shun the comments.  But, I value you. I consider you my friend.  And I want you to know that even in the tough, the rough, and the jagged edges of life… I am here.  And so is the LORD that holds me together when you see me smiling on the outside.

I hope you will find this place to be a brave and quiet place for you.  Always.

 

 

 

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    Nessa
    October 27, 2016 at 4:10 pm

    Thank you so much for this article. I felt as though you were reading my heart. I too am an introvert that God has called to step outside of my comfy quiet shell and some days I wish I could crawl back into it! Lol. Thank you for always being real and for being obedient in sharing your mommy heart with the rest of us. I am one grateful momma.

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    Tamara Lieuw
    November 4, 2016 at 11:03 am

    Dear September,

    With much interessest I did read your blog. I find it great how big your heart is for God and your family. I found it great to see you do homeschooling, and that you’re biggest calling is your family. I believe thats how God want it for our families. How great, ten childeren. I have four childeren, and that is already a challenge, and much of the time I feel overwhelmed and tired. How do you see birth control? I ask myself how God want that for us. I mean in this world we want to take control over everything. But isn’t it God who is the giver of new life, is it our job to control that?
    I really would like to do homeschooling, but here in Holland, is not very easy to get permission for it.
    I wish you all the best and blessings for you and your family.
    Greetings from Holland, Tamara Lieuw

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    Julie
    November 6, 2016 at 2:49 am

    September,
    Thank you for sharing this. God has recently asked me to begin to blog. I am doing it step by step but it is scary and only through Him will I do it. This was one of the confirmations He has put in my path. Many times what you said was exactly what the Sprit has been saying to me. I will be saving this post as I begin this new journey. Thank you again for sharing.

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